I took my dogs for a walk on my favourite beach this morning at Waterside, New Brunswick. This beach has 60′ tidal changes every 6 hours because it’s on the magnificent Bay of Fundy.
I love this beach, not only for its energy, but for the excitement of seeing its changing facade. It never looks the same two visits in a row and this time was no exception. I suspect Dorian had something to do with the new look. The sand was smooth and packed all the way up to the dune. Easy walking for me and great running for the dogs.
The last time I visited this beach, I grieved for me and for Allan. It was raw, it was cleansing. This time, it was quiet but I wasn’t very present. I had a hard time focusing on the moment so I gave up and called on the energy associated to the water to merge with my energy and cleanse my fields. I didn’t force trying to be present, I allowed my brain to wander where it needed to.
As I drove away from the beach, I had a profound shift in my awareness. I was feeling the same way I felt before I married for the first time many years ago. I am rediscovering who I am as a single woman. I am rediscovering how truly incredible I am and what I bring to the world. I am rediscovering how I touch people’s lives and do my best to bring joy and happiness to those I speak to and interact with. All of this without fear of making my partner jealous or having to watch what I say or who I talk to or what I do.
(There are many underlying reasons for why I watched what I did or said or who I spoke to while married but that’s for another blog.)
I am loud, I am brash, I am bold and I am fabulous. I stopped apologizing for who I am a long time ago and my goal in life right now is to have fun. I desire to be remembered as the lady who lifted others.
I desire to bring joy into everything I do.
If I haven’t spoken to you today, may I remember you that you totally rock and the world is a much better place with you in it. I love you unconditionally. Continue to be fabulous.
There is indeed magic in boldness.
Rock on, babies!!