Undoubtedly I have something that needs healing. Everything I have described points directly to adrenal fatigue and a pretty nasty case of it at that. There are other people with much more severe cases out there who are not even aware of what is afflicting them. For them, I have an immense amount of respect because I am trying to figure out how they are getting through their every day.
I am grateful for this hiccup though because it gives me hope for the future.
Before I knew about adrenal fatigue, I was worried about spending the rest of my life in this state and wondering what I could do to change it. Now I have a game plan. This suits my type A personality very nicely. I have a plan to do nothing so I can get better and be better! I am so excited. Like anything I do, it will take me a while to move into a new routine and I have no doubt I will soon be mastering the art of doing nothing but sitting on my back deck and staring at the sky. Have you ever stared at the sky? It is quite fascinating to do. Even if you think there is nothing up there, you can find the tiniest movements...try it and let me know what you see.
Even if you do not see anything (which I doubt) staring at the sky shifts your focus to how fantastical the world we live in truly is and how limitless and abundant. We are, if we allow ourselves to be, the same...limitless and abundant. We can take a much needed deep breath and connect with nature. Have you ever paused to listen to the birds? They can tell you so much. I now know when a bird of prey is in the area. I know the defensive mechanisms used by various species of birds. I know who is married to who this year and where they have made their homes. All from the comfort of my own back dec. The hidden world in plain sight.
I have to let you in on a little secret. In my previous blog, I spoke of my passion for writing. I am planning a series of new books based on the past life work I have done for myself and for others. I am so very excited about it and the characters are coming to life. Once again, from the comfort of my own back deck.
A big part of my journey has been accepting that I am here. Now. I do not yet know my life purpose although I sense the truth will soon be revealed. I accepted my existence about 5 years ago but I have been slow to change the habits that have driven my life to that point. The "keep busy to avoid myself" syndrome is deeply ingrained and now I come full circle. I am facing myself and having to make the necessary changes in order to live the second half of my life with the understanding that a higher purpose is what I am here to fulfill. A purpose that transcends my own existence..
I do not yet know what the future has in store but that is now irrelevant since it will come to me in its own time. The present is real and here now.
I wish you all a blessed day.