We see empathy as a weakness when in fact, it is an incredible strength. Even more powerful is a human who is aware of their empathic side and uses that gift to bring love and light to the world.
Growing up, I was very sensitive to everyone around me and would often appear out of control emotionally and mentally. I was even brought to a child psychologist when I was young because I was so angry and "out of control." Everyone tip toed around me because no one seemed to know what would trigger me or set me off. I didn't even know...life was a mess, unbearable and confusing. It also didn't help when my parents were telling me not to be so sensitive, to grow a thicker skin, life would run over me if I didn't toughen up...
Wow...I get emotional thinking about that time of great hurt and confusion. I did very self-destructive behaviours I am still healing from. I ate my way through childhood. I bit my nails down to the quick, I wet my bed until about 12, I cried myself to sleep most nights and just basically hated myself and everything about me. All of this hidden behind a smile.
I remember the moment when I looked myself in the mirror and said "no one really cares about me and how I feel so I am just going to smile." And smile I did. Laugh I did. Cry I did but only in private. Everyone commented about how beautiful my smile was and how much I laughed, how loud and infectious my laugh was. No one ever said how beautiful my tears were and how infectious my crying was.
Underneath it all however, I was still the very sensitive empath. The magnet for everyone's emotions, thoughts, feelings and physical pains. Generations of anger was my burden to carry until I learned to deal with my empathy. I learned to understand what being empathic meant and how to manage this gift...for it is truly a gift.
I am feeling compelled to share the raw truth with you today because it is important for you to understand that you are not alone. There are others like you out there experiencing the same feelings, the same emotions, the same doubts, the same everything as you...
As much as it pained me a few years ago, I realized that if I wanted my life to get better and to be different from the misery I had been experiencing, I alone had to choose to heal myself. I alone had to make the decisions necessary to heal. I played victim for a while rebelling against the idea that I was responsible for my miserable life and my life would be different if he hadn't said or done that to me, if she hadn't laughed at me, blah blah blah. Once I finally decided to take back my own power and make decisions for myself, life started to calm down. I started to live in the peace I desired for myself and started to truly love myself for the first time ever.
When I was miserably unhappy, everyone loved me. Now that I am standing in my power and doing my thing, some people don't like me and I am okay with that. I have learned I am not here to win a popularity contest. I am here to live my life for the glory of God and to be the messenger and teacher He desires for me to be. Do I piss you off? Good! What do you need to heal?
If you finally want to get a handle on your empathy, I can help you with that. If you want to heal yourself, I can help you with that too. If you want to continue living in misery, there is nothing I can do for you and I won't live in misery with you. What purpose would that serve? I love you too much to leave you in your misery. If you desire to hang out with me, you will have to learn to heal and love it. I love you unconditionally and I desire for you to do the same.
Can you imagine the whole world getting a hold of their empathic abilities and choosing to be around people who love instead of angry people who choose to hate? How incredible it would be to amplify unconditional love around the world to the point where fear has no place. Light brightens every dark corner so fear cannot take hold. Just imagine...