As I continue my journey, I am very excited about the future. This evening however, I am reminded that I am not the only one in my family experiencing changes and shifts. I tend to forget that point. We are a family that has learned to take responsibility for our actions, thoughts and comments and we also know we are responsible for our own happiness and healing so why should I be so surprised when others are going through "stuff?"
I am contemplating this question in the quiet and dark of the night. It is a peaceful time, perfect for reflection while the family is sleeping. The other question I am pondering is "am I providing the support required for others to heal?" I guess my family members would be better able to answer the second question and hopefully provide me with guidance on how best I can support them in the future.
As for the first question, part of my challenge is that my family is my rock, my foundation and certain individuals are my councilors and guides. Some may say I need only rely on myself and Creator. I tried relying only on myself for the better part of my life and I can tell you, my life was a mess. I truly had no idea where I was going, what I was doing or even who I was. It was only after I started asking for help, reaching out to others and truly connecting with Creator that my life began to have meaning, purpose and direction.
I know my family does not understand my journey and at times, it is very difficult to articulate what I experience on a daily basis but I am never discouraged from continuing. Indeed, there have been scary moments where I did not know what was happening to me or what the outcome of certain healing sessions would be but my foundation, my rock was always there.
I know other individuals are shifting so why is it so hard for me to remember that my family will too? Is it perhaps a fear that I have yet to heal coming forward? Is what I am experiencing at this time mine? With great shifts, great courage is needed to face them and overcome. With great shifts, there is also great uncertainty. Because many people identify with fears, beliefs and experiences of the past, when those fears, beliefs and experiences shift and are healed, the current identity is gone. Who they have been for years is gone and they must reacquaint themselves with the new them. Will they like what they see? Will they like who they truly are, who they are becoming in the process of healing?
As I contemplate about what a foundation is, Creator is showing me the Earth. Mother Earth is a living being forever nurturing and providing, forever shifting and moving. Land and sea are supported by giant tectonic plates. These plates are always moving, heaving, settling. Our Earth is always in flux yet she is always there to support us. Many of us do not think about her moving and heaving unless we are directly affected and only then do many of us truly think about our foundation, our rock.
As one of my councilors is so fond of telling me, we live in a state of grace where we are cared for and all is as it should be so even when your foundation shifts, it is as it should be. Never lose faith in the foundation, simply move with it and ride the waves until she settles again. The change wrought by the waves are necessary, know this to be true.
Therein lies the resolution to my question: why should I be so surprised when others are going through "stuff?" My family, like everyone else, are always shifting, moving, heaving and settling but I am only aware of it when I am directly affected and I must make adjustments to my ideas about my foundation. I must never lose faith in my family because like the tectonic plates on Mother Earth, my family dynamics are always shifting and morphing with the changes necessary to ensure everyone's continued growth and development.
Lesson of the day: foundations shift, shift with it. Simple enough...but is it?
There are many global events happening that could are stirring fear in people. For some people, the instinct is to lash out at those individuals causing these events. For other people, it is to run from these events and not want to get involved or even deny that these events happened. For yet another group of people, the instinct is to freeze in place and do nothing and hope the events pass and they not be affected. This is the freeze, flight or fight instincts we are born with.
Have a negative reaction to a negative situation is normal. ACTING on the negative reaction however, is something entirely different. I would like to speak to you about the gift of fear.
Like you, my initial instinct was to be angry and fearful about what happened. Some of the feelings were mine and some belonged to the collective consciousness. I immediately prayed for everyone involved on all sides of the situation because everyone involved needs unconditional love. As the details of the events came forward and the reactions began to pour in on all media avenues, it became clear to me what was going on.
First of all, Creator has always said to me that the ultimate lesson for a human being is forgiveness and in order for humanity to live in peace, we must forgive. In order for us to learn how to forgive, "stuff" has to happen and in order for stuff to happen, someone needs to step out of true loves form and perpetrate acts that would cause people to need to forgive.
Secondly, those of us in the spiritual genre have been talking about the shift for the last few years. The shift is moving us from the third dimension of survival to the fifth dimension of spirituality however in order for the shift to happen, shifts must happen. Does that make sense? You cannot possibly move from a survival instinct to a spiritual mindset without major healing happening. Certainly, the collective mind cannot make the transition from survival to spirituality unless a global shift occurs and guess what? We got our global event that could cause a global shift. It's happening right now! We have an incredible opportunity to move the collective and ourselves from a life of survival to a life of spirituality, a life of abundance, a life of peace and balance! This is it folks! We are being provided with an opportunity, what are we going to do with it?
If you doubt me, take a look at the reaction of the events on social media. Moderate individuals who would normally be docile are standing up and saying not in our name. World leaders who are normally at odds with each other are coming together as one to discuss the common good. The war like reactions of the world leaders are also helping the collective because as people of the Earth, we can say to our world leaders NO! we don't accept a war-like reaction to these events.
Billions of sleeping individuals are finally waking up and refusing to accept the status quo. People are being awoken to the fact that they are being manipulated because they have been lulled into believing the leaders will take care of them. This is not so. In order for people to truly live lives of peace, they must be awake and aware and conscious of what is taking place around them. Millions of school children are praying for peace. CHILDREN are getting it! They are praying for peace.
This type of global awareness is happening because we have individuals willing to step out of true loves form to help us learn and grown. What we do with the awareness is up to us. What are you willing to do?
If those individuals who perpetrated these global events were in front of me today, I would kiss them because they have galvanized the peace movement like never before. They have gifted us with fear so we can wake up and say no more. They have shaken us out of our apathy and we are preparing, on a global scale, to move into a place of love and forgiveness that will change the course of human history.
This is what these global events are bringing to us. The gift of fear is one which will change the course of humanity if we understand it for what it is: an opportunity for healing and peace.
If you are personally affected by the global events happening at this time then healing is mandatory in order for you to attain forgiveness and a peaceful state. It is not easy but it is doable. For those of you not personally affected by the events that have happened, how are you choosing to use the gift of fear?
Are you allowing it to free you from fear or are you allowing it to solidify your position into a fearful mindset? You have the power to affect the collective consciousness and the direction of humanity. What are you going to do with it?
I am choosing to love unconditionally at this time. Why don't you join me? It is only love that will heal all of the ails in the world. It is only love that will bring about "justice" and peace. It is only love. That's it. It's that simple.
What do you choose?
The depth of uncomfortable you are willing to endure will dictate the depth of healing you will experience.
If you are willing to be deeply uncomfortable looking at the fears and beliefs you carry then you will be equally rewarded with the depth of healing you will achieve.
I am very blessed to have been guided by Creator to host Soul Cafe every Tuesday night. Soul Cafe is a safe and nurturing drop in group where people who are seeking answers to spirituality or guidance on their life journey can feel free to share without judgment. Many nights, Soul Cafe is uplifting and we have fun exploring what is coming forward for people to heal, identifying lessons in different experiences and meeting other people just like us! Often times, I recognize my self in people who come to share and it reinforces how far I have come and how much I have de-evolved. (I call it de-evolving because I tried evolving and it wasn't fun. I was full of fear and barriers so I decided to unlearn and de-evolve and now my life is, for the most part, extremely peaceful)
There are other nights however, where we are smacked by the universe with yet another level of healing. This awareness comes in many forms...perhaps it's an incident someone encountered during the week, perhaps it's a story being told, perhaps it's another individual in the circle that sets you off by what they say, what they do or even just by showing up! Whatever the case may be, I love those types of circles above all others because healing is going to happen! Not only are we there to feel good, we are there to heal so how uncomfortable are you willing to be to heal what needs to be healed?
Are you willing to face the fear the others are stirring in you or are you going to walk away from the opportunity provided to you by the universe. Remember that at some level, you asked for this healing. You knew you were ready, put the call to the universe and the universe complied by presenting you with your next teacher and mentor. Are you going to walk away from that?
If you choose to walk away (and you can because Creator gave us all free will) remember that the universe will still comply with your request to heal what is coming up for you and will create yet another experience for you to learn your lesson. Are you willing to walk away from that again? And again? And again?
Often I hear: why is this always happening to me? I always meet these types of people or I always run into this situation. I always get treated this way. Why?? Answer: your next lesson is facing you.
I know how painful fears and beliefs can be to hold on to. I know what fears and beliefs can rob from you and your life. Are you willing to add just a little uncomfortable to that pain to be free of it forever? Think about it for a minute. You are voluntarily holding on to fears and beliefs because they are familiar. We are willing to enduring uncomfortable and painful just because it's familiar. Better the enemy we know rather than the enemy we don't, right? How about this idea: Be uncomfortable just a little bit more by facing the fears and beliefs, identify where lessons need to be learned, learn them, release them, forgive and be rid of the uncomfortable and fear and live peacefully.
How about the idea of living in peace? How about the idea of living drama-free? How about the idea of living pain-free? How about the idea of living rather than just existing?
How uncomfortable are you willing to get in order to live a life of peace? Be real about your answer. If you are comfortable in your pain, say so. If you are not, reach out for help. It will be there.
Remember, there is no judgment in your decision. It is your life after all and what you make of it is your choice.
I just desire for you what you desire for yourself.
In my last blog, I talked about the loss of a dream. What I am here to share now is the freedom and advancements I have experienced because of that loss. Because I was no longer feeling compelled to strive for a vision that was not mine, I freed myself of the anxiety, frustration and disappointment that came along with feeling like I was failing at a "God given" dream. Almost at the same time, I dropped another activity that was consuming much of my life because it no longer brought me joy. These two releases provided me with yet another level of peace and understanding of my existence. It also opened me up to receive more mentors helping me to continue to understand the nothingness that we are supposed to be living. Does that make sense? Ponder and meditate on that statement for a while.
In the meantime, I was awakened at 3 am this morning by a couple of beings who are extremely excited to be able to bring you the following message. The primary being on the message below calls herself "The Primal One" and here is what they have to say:
"The state of existence known as the human condition is a temporary state of being. Though its existence seems real it is truly an illusion that will soon fade however, those in this state choose to make it real.. Rather than existing in a state of being that is learning, they exist in a state of being that is exemplifying the need for lessons. They are forgetting who they truly are and their true existence by hiding behind falls false beliefs and ideas about who they need to be. This is wrong. It is time for the human existence to end and the spiritual existence to be the only state for them. Regardless of the form the spirit takes, it is still spirit but in a different form. There is a mindset that all must be a certain way or its existence is invalid, false somehow. This is not true. The truth lies in the knowing that you are spirit and with being a spirit you are connected to all beings and thus when you hurt one you hurt all, even the self. There is a conscious decision being made every day about their state of existence. Shall I be human or shall I be spiritual? That decision is irrelevant. You are spirit. There is no other being for you to be so why are you making irrelevant decisions? Why are you entering into a realm you know nothing of?
The realm of the human existence is an illusion that will cease to exist some day but the spirit that you are will continue indefinitely. You speak of your forever god yet you do not believe yourself to be so. This is irrational. You cannot believe in something that is forever without yourself being so. You cannot believe in limitations with you being so. You cannot believe in falsehoods without you being so. It is important for you to remember your boundlessness, your limitlessness, your true potential of existing with one and all in all realms, in all dimensions and and all times. Time is another illusion for you have the perception that you are limited on time. The time you follow is man made and extremely limiting. The time I follow is forever and very liberating. There is no structure to time. There is no structure to the spiritual so their should be no structure to the human existence. This structure you believe you seek is simply to limit you and your form and your beliefs and your desires. Be unlimited. Be limitless be formless be boundless.
This can all be achieved even in human form. The spirit is limitless and boundless and thus the human existence is as well. It is only in the human perception of limit and boundaries that all begins to crumbled and the illusion takes hold. How come you wish many good things for others but you have a difficult time wishing them for yourself. You can see the unlimited potential in other but you yourself are limited in your options and choices? This is irrational. This makes no sense. This causes fears and limiting beliefs. There is no limits to the human existence save the ones you apply to yourself and if you apply them to yourself, you apply them to others. This is current state of the human existence and this state is very harmful.
As of yet, the humans believe they are alone in this huge expanse of space and this is not true. The humans are the last creatures to be created on this relatively new planet called the earth. They are the biggest experiment of existence ever created and it is interesting to watch the evolution. We are interested in the human experience and whether the humans will truly understand some day their limitless and boundlessness and whether they will encounter their true selves while experiencing the human form. It is important that humans move towards that understanding for mother earth is moving you in that direction steadily. She has been doing this for quite a time and yet there is resistance to moving with her. This is what is causing strife on your planet. The natural flow and movement of time and space is being countered by beliefs of structure and control. When you seek to control those around you and you seek to control time and space, you are controlling that which cannot be controlled and at some time as like now, there will be a surge of resistance and a desire to regain truth and to live once again with the natural rhythm of existence.
Your indigenous beings understand this and they are difficult to control for the spirit in them is strong. Suppression was tried on these individuals of the stars and while the belief was there, momentarily, that the control was working, quickly this became untrue. Quickly the spirit of the indigenous broke away from the control of time and space to reestablish their patterns of living within and with the natural flow of life. The spirit was freed once again to begin flowing with the natural rhythm of life on earth.
There is much you will learn from these indigenous for there are the guardians of the planet. There are the guardians of all beings and they are here to help you and protect you from yourselves.
The indigenous were not created as you were created, they were created from the start dust and from the love of all that is. They are not part of the last great experiment."
So ends the lesson for the day and hopefully I will be permitted to head back to bed.
For as long as I can remember, I had envisioned myself on stage speaking to many people. When I was younger, I thought I was going to be a great singer until I realized I could sing well enough to be in a choir and not as a soloist. Up until recently, I thought I was going to speak on stage and share stories, healings, teachings to accelerate healing for many however, last night, I realized that was not true either.
For a few years now, I have known I am an extremely sensitive empath. Prior to this realization and without awareness, I voluntarily carried anger and other emotions that belonged to others for close to 40 years. It was not without difficulty that I managed to clear myself of these painful emotions and forgive myself for carrying these emotions knowing how each affected my life is some way.
I had learned to question every thought, every emotion and every physical ailment I was having to determine if any belonged to me and if so, I healed it. If not, I would clear it. While this sounds simple, I somehow managed to exclude some thoughts from the microscope and being on stage was one of them.
Last night, however, the planets aligned and I had the vision of speaking from stage firmly planted in my mind's eye with a message to explore this vision...was it mine? The answer: NO. I was once again carrying someone else's vision and at some point in my life, decided to make it mine.
This would explain why every attempt down the road to public speaking failed and would never flow gently and smoothly. When trying to determine if it was in the highest good for me to hold conferences or public seminars, for the most part, I would hear no. The odd time I was given permission, the turnout would be small, about 8 people and my ego mind would judge the turnout as a disappointment. Now, of course, I can see the significance of those individuals and the impact they have played in my life. For this, I am very grateful however, this does not negate the struggles I had with making my dream of speaking on stage come true.
With hindsight, I am being reminded once again to check every thought, emotion and physical ailment to determine if each are mine or not. This is a reminder I will not soon forget.
I am grateful for the insight about my vision of speaking on stage because it means the struggle can now end however, I am also saddened by the insight. The dream of speaking on stage has been with me for many years and it now feels like a part of me is missing. I know that in time, this will heal but in the meantime, I am choosing to mourn the loss of a dream.
I am confused and disoriented. I am at a loss for how to move forward in life since I had focused so much time and energy on a dream that was not mine. I will do as I normally do in times such as these and that is to go quiet. I go within to cry the tears I need to cry to release the dream and heal what is connected to the lost dream. I do not know how long this process will take and I am willing to allow myself the time necessary to process as I need to.
I ask you...what dreams are you holding on to that are not yours? Are you struggling mightily to make your dream come to fruition? Are you willing to put your dream under the microscope to determine if it is in fact yours?
While the process can be painful, I assure you, it will be worth it in the end.
Have a blessed day and I wish you happy dreams.