Having healed many fears and beliefs in my life, it is rare I have a really down day and this day is one of those rare days. I had a realization a few days ago that I am carrying a belief that creation is a burden.

This belief explains why I cannot seem to stick with things very long. I begin the process of learning something or creating something new and I am very excited. I throw my whole being into this process of creation, learn what I need to learn, develop the skills necessary to continue creating and then lose the passion. It has been this way as long as I can remember in this lifetime. I am always asking myself why I cannot stick to one activity, one thing before becoming bored or seeing it as a pain. Now I have my answer: I believe creation is a burden.

Creation includes hobbies, life, humanity, evolution, all of it. It is a burden.

Obviously, I will be healing this belief and replacing it with the truth but before I do that, I desire to explore where this belief came from. Being curious, I like to know these things. Let me share with you what I found.

I asked my soul to take me to the very first time I ever believed creation was a burden and magic started to happen. My soul took me to a place before time began, before the earth, universe and everything we see around us existed. There were three beings: Creator, She and The Ancient One.

She is the feminine aspect of life and loves creation because she is a creator herself. The feminine embraces life and all that is.  She is the nurturer, the mother, the peacemaker, the comfort for the woes of the world.

The Ancient One is the masculine aspect of life. It is from him I descend. Prior to creation of the world, there was space both singular and infinitesimally small yet huge beyond human comprehension at the same time. It was all and nothing. It was life and death, light and dark, peace and love. It was beautiful and brought me to tears of deep joy and incredible peace. I, however, am not a nurturer/creator, I am type A driven personality who would rather have a career than be a stay at home mom. Masculine energy!? Yup, got it in spades.

As I basked in the nothingness and knowingness that was existence at that time, I saw a white light suddenly spark in the distance, heard a faint pop and then energy waves resonated in all directions. Suddenly, everything we know and see today expanded rapidly to fill the space. Science claims all we know was built and expanded over millions and billions of years. From what I experienced, it was instantaneous. This is my truth.

All I know is, in a mere smidge of a moment, my nothingness was filled with something and I believed it to be an intrusion, an invasion of my beautiful center of being. I asked Creator why he would do this and his response: creation is an expansion of love.

Providing no reply to Creator's comment, I could feel myself watching the goings on of creation and without exception, each race/sentient being world began to "evolve" from child-like wonder and love to intolerant, cruel and confused "knowledge" filled individuals to finally "enlightened" beings understanding that love is the only truth and we are all connected.  Also, without exception, I voluntarily helped each world through to final stage to enlightenment because my whole goal, even in this lifetime, is to seek peace again. If you ask me what I am looking for, peace would be my answer. I am doing what is necessary to find peace.

One major insight I had while processing that lifetime: my feminine side loves creating and nurturing but my very strong masculine side eventually rears its head to remind me of my belief that creation is a burden and why bother?

I very much admire people who can continue to create and hone their craft over many, many years. Their passion for creating never seems to wane and yet I get bored with it and walk away.  Now, I understand why.

Belief is always healed by the truth and my truth is that creation is a beautiful expression of who I am as an individual. Creation is how I leave my mark on the world and hopefully bring the world one step closer to the "enlightened" state of love and connectedness so we can once again experience the vastness and smallness of existence.

While I toddle off and begin forgiving creation for being here and ruining my day and begin forgiving Creator for making this mess, I ask you to consider your thoughts on creation. Burden or beauty?

With blessings

I am always intrigued with the stories people share about their lives, their experiences and the reason they do what they do.  It is in listening to the stories that truth begins to unravel and be laid out in front of me.  As an empath, truth is critical for me because if I am not living my truth or someone around me is not, then I can sense that. If your words and your energy do not match, it is easy for me to tell.  What is not so easy is watching people live lies and create stories around those lies so in some form or fashion, those lies become their truth.

Eventually, of course, the truth will out but that is for another blog.

I share these thoughts with you today because of a recent comment I heard about the boutique I own (www.InspiredYouBoutique.com).  The intent behind the boutique is to help people see the truth and heal so they can begin to live the lives they choose rather than live the lives chosen for them.  The comment was "I don't like going to the boutique and I tell everyone else not to go too." 

At first, I was confused and hurt by this comment.  When I examined why this statement hurt, I realized it was because I was trying to control what people were thinking.  I desire to have people love me as I love them, unconditionally. I was reminded by Creator that this is not always possible.  People cannot love another unless they love themselves first.  Creator also reminded me that the boutique is an environment for truth and healing.  If people are not ready to face the truth and not ready to heal, of course they are not going to like going to the boutique.  Only those who are ready, will feel drawn to come.  Good points, all of them.  Thank you Creator.  I was also gently reminded by my husband and counselor that focusing on that comment only attracts more comments like that.  I cannot control what people say or do.  I can simply live as guided by Creator and continue to love unconditionally.

This leads me to my next point.  Why are we so afraid of the truth?  Given what I know about living a life of truth, I would heal whatever I needed to so I can stay in this balanced state.  I blog about this point a lot because the feeling of living a balanced life cannot be explained in mere human words, it has to be experienced.  The peace, the love, the joy, the adventures, the experiences.  Life continues to happen but how you perceive the happenings changes dramatically.  You begin looking for the synchronistic events and how what you see as totally disjointed events eventually come together to form a whole.  Fantastic!  Incredible!  Beyond words!  I desire this for you!

With the coming of the bistro and the adventures around that, in the past, I would have perceived these adventures as major life stopping obstacles leading to meltdowns and a pity round of "why is this always happening to me!?".  The meltdowns would have been catastrophic events including tears, screaming, yelling, physical outbursts...really not pretty.  Now, a meltdown consists of some confusion and a couple of what am I supposed to be learing questions.  Life gets uncomplicated, simple and easy to live.  The chaos and confusion is gone and the drama is non-existent.  After the meltdown has settled, I begin looking for the synchronistic events.  How are Creator and the universe going to make this one happen?  Who is Creator going to bring into my life that holds the key to unraveling this mystery?  I usually do not have to wait long.  It is so much fun!  I just cannot tell you...

Okay, so back to my original point.  What is your story?  When we sit down over a cup of tea will you share with me your reasons as to why your life really sucks or are you going to share with me your story as to how your life used to suck and here is what you did to make it better?  Are you going to tell me about how your life has always been great or are you going to share with me how your life can never get better?

What is your story?  You are the holder of the pen.  You are the scribe. Tell me...what is your story?

With blessings


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